1. I Deserve It All

Lyrics:

I was a happy young boy

I played with my toys

I was full of imagination

And family was still intact

It was great for a little boy like me

But it all turned into something wicked

This is a story about me

And how I came to be

“Hi mom and dad!”

(Hi there son)

“Hello darling! How was school today?”

“Well, pretty good! I had such a great time with my friends!”

“That’s great to hear sweetie! Your brothers and sisters are waiting inside. We’ll have lunch soon!”

“Thanks, mom!”

Sister teased me

So I angrily pushed her down

Father lifted me to the wall

“Look what you did! This is your fault!”

So maybe I deserve it all

Maybe I deserve it all

I made fun of younger kids

Hurting their feelings

Mother didn’t like it

And told how bad I am

Maybe I deserve it all

Maybe I deserve it all

Then the day came in our lives

Father’s words hit me like a knife

“Me and your mother are separating”

This must be my fault, that they hate each other

Maybe I deserve it all

Maybe I deserve it all

Do I deserve it all?I deserve it all

You all fucked me up

Coherency won’t set me free

And still you think I’m easy to blame

Now I’m older and so much stronger

I have seen how faulty you are

Deep inside my veins I have an unhealed scar

I thought it would last forever

But in the end there’s something clever

I won’t let this anger take me

I have to do it, I need to do it

Better this way than to slit someone’s throat

I hit back and make the crack

Truth rises from the stack

Let the horrors be set free

Better than going on a killing spree

Finding myself longing for justice

Making you see how it is

Opening a portal to the torment

This is how my life has been spent

Even If something wasn’t my fault

I took the blame so peace would last longer

Bringing in the salt

And opening my wounds for the affliction

Poisoning my mind with fiction

Trying to forget who I am

Just another butchered lamb

Fallen on the ground like a moldy clam

Running as fast as I can

Towards the dying plan

I almost reach to hold it tight

But my past creeps in with it’s venomous bite

My hateful thoughts

Goes to the world like powerful shots

You can’t blame me for who I am

It’s you who are the wicked scum

You sicken me

You people are deranged

No remorse to my emotions

You also deserve it all

At every sunrise I remember it all

Every single detail

And I think to myself

Is there any hope?

To help ourselves cope

But one day you will hear

(One day you will hear)

The truth saddening and dear

(The truth)

I hit back and make the crack

Truth rises from the stack

Let the horrors be set free

Better than going on a killing spree

Finding myself longing for justice

Making you see how it is

Opening a portal to the torment

This is how my life has been spent

Now it feels I’ve hurt too much

I have screamed every hateful word

My anger has gotten the best of me

So this is why I am hated

Maybe I deserve it all

Maybe I deserve it all

Maybe I deserve it all

I deserve it all